Jamie, today we had to say goodbye.
We know that you were there with us every step of the way, you gave us so many signals that it started to become funny! I loved it when you made the music skip even though your Dad was adamant that it was absolutely fine, I loved the double rainbow that you put in front of the storm clouds as we left the crematorium and the feather that you sent down for your Mum to keep was something I'll never forget.
I can't begin to describe how much it meant to see so many of your friends waiting outside as we arrived and how they came and sat in the aisles to make room for everyone. I have never in my life seen so many people in one place and it's testament to the way you had touched so many of us in your 16 years on this earth.
Nothing is stronger than the love of your family and friends - that was proven today.. As I said before, I will dedicate my life to raise money to fund the research which aims to eradicate the disease that made both of our lives pretty damn rubbish at points.
For some reason the disease decided that I should survive, I can't begin to tell you how guilty that makes me feel but I know that you're with me every step of the way as I kick the hell out of it in a way that would make you proud.
I love you cousin xxxxx